Love to get you through

The love of God gets me through more then I thought I could ever handle.

I’ve always tried to be the person that says they can do anything, I don’t back away from challenges and I always try to find the solution to any problem.

But when I’m faced with things that I can’t fix or make work, it opens the door to be discouraged or even depressed.

A few years ago I struggled with depression over not being pregnant after several years of trying. I was discouraged and I knew that God loved me but I didn’t want to spend time with Him. Honestly I was mad at God. But in time I came to realize that just because I wanted a baby doesn’t mean I’m ready. Having a baby isn’t about me, it’s about the baby.

God was teaching me that having a baby wasn’t about fulfilling my desire to be a mother but it should be about wanting to do and be whats best for the child.

I needed to learn that.

Even though we are not expecting yet. I am trusting that God will bring a child into our lives when it is best for the baby.

I trust God because I know He loves me and I’m reminded of that each day as I write. Writing helps me keep focused on Him, it helps me to evaluate my life and see Him working in it.

His love sustains me, it feeds me, but I have to let Him love me.

What area of your life are holding back God’s love from?

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.  It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.  Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.  It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. -1 Corinthians 13:4-7

True Fulfillment Isn’t A Quick Fix

Temptation is attractive. That’s the reason it’s tempting. Just because something is fun or enjoyable for a moment doesn’t make it a good choice. Especially if we feel guilty or worse after.

Temptation leads us slowly to make compromise after compromise to fulfill a growing need that is never really satisfied. So we go deeper, push aside responsibilities, neglect family and friends to try to fulfill our need but never find satisfaction. Because we are trying to fill our lack with the counterfeit. 

Like Edmund in “The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe.” He craved being important which is why when the White Witch offered for him to be a prince, it appealed to him. If Edmund had just waited Aslan would make him a king but Edmund tried to achieve it on his own. He listened to the White Witch because she offered an almost immediate answer to his need. Edmund even used his own family to try achieve his selfish desires. When if he’d only waited his need would of been fulfilled by Aslan when he makes him king the right way without compromise or guilt. 

God’s timing matters. Because in the waiting is when he prepares us for what he plans to bless us with. He places in us desires but we often look to fulfill them on our own with counterfeit quick fixes. When if we would only look to him he will fulfill the needs he put in us beyond anything we could of achieved on our own.

God created us and he is the one that fills our needs, wants and desires without guilt, regret or shame. We find our fulfillment in Jesus. What he has for us is always so much better then anything we could think, dream or imagine and its always more then we deserve.

Kindness Instead of Retaliation

Bless them that curse you, and pray for them which despitefully use you. -Luke 6:28

It’s easy to be nice to people who are nice to you. But to be nice to people who are mean, rude and completely against you is hard. Let alone to actually bless and pray for them. But that is what God asks of us. Yes he wants to bring that person to repentance and into relationship with him. But he also does not want our hearts marred with bitterness, anger, resentment or anything else that would distract us from him and who he made us to be.

How would you want someone to treat you if they caught you in one of your worst moments when you’re maybe sick or exhausted. We all have our best and worst moments and our one interaction with the nicest person may be the worst moment in their life and all they need is a smile or a bit of kindness to help them through.

What about the people we interact with regularly that rub us the wrong way. Being rude and mean back isn’t going to make things better. But if we pray for them and ask Jesus to show us how he sees them. It will help us to see them with the compassion he does.

Jesus endured the cross for every single person in humanity and who are we to deny them that free gift of salvation. Jesus changed us when we gave our life to him. He can do the same for them.

He will show us how he see each person as valuable, important and loved. If we ask.

And by sharing that love with those that curse us we shine his light even brighter.

What should I do?

And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him. –Colossians 3:17

Sometimes we ask ourselves should we do this or should we do that?

Jesus when asked about the law, responded love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind, and your neighbor as yourself.” (Luke 10:27)

So how do we love God and our neighbor?

By Jesus living in and through us. God is love and to love him and others we must let him shine through us. He calls us to die to self so that he can live through us. So it’s not about us, its about him.

It’s not about striving and trying to do and be like him. But it’s through relationship with Jesus that we learn who he is and by surrendering ourselves over to him so that he can live through us. We are simply willing vessels.

You never know

Everything in life starts small. Humans as babies, plants as seeds, companies all have a day one. Everything starts somewhere and its all the little things that make the big things happen.

Don’t be discouraged if you haven’t reached your dreams yet.

David beat Goliath with a stone. When he got up that morning all he intended to do was bring food to his brothers. Even after that David still waited years till the word spoken over him to be king came true. Big dreams rarely happen overnight.

It’s the little things in life that make us who we are. The everyday things that make an impact. The little everyday things prepare us for the big things later.

For David it was the time spent daily shepherding sheep that prepared him to follow God’s plan in God’s time that made him who he was.

It was the time that Jesus spent each day with Father God that gave him the wisdom to know what to say, when and where to go and who to talk to.

We need those same moments each day where we let God lead us and direct our steps, the turn in our drive that helps us avoid the car accident or the mom with screaming kid that we open the door for. It’s the little things that make the difference.

Ask God what the little things are that you can do each day that will make the big things happen. You never know what one stone can do till you see a giant fall.

Baggage and Beautiful Messes

Why do we only see flaws when we look in the mirror? Why do we carry around all the baggage of our past pains and hurts?

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 Beautiful Messes by Hilary Scott & the Scott family talks about laying down all our baggage at the foot of cross and giving it to Jesus, because to him we are never lost causes.

God doesn’t see us the way we see ourselves. He sees us as beautiful messes.  He sees the beauty he created us to be, that is bogged down by the baggage we choose to carry with us. We are the ones that choose to walk around carrying all our hurts and pains, lugging around the baggage of our past.

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But his burden is light.

God doesn’t want us to carry all that around with us. He wants us to lay it all at his feet.

Baggage can be many things worry, anxiety, past hurts and pain. It’s anything that holds us back from expressing the joy and love of Jesus.

One of the secrets of our marriage is that we don’t carry our baggage with us. My husband and I both go to God first before going to each other or anyone else, when we realize that something bothers us.

We ask God, why? Whether it is something someone said or did or even our own mood or attitude that we know is not from him. We go to God first and ask what the root cause of the pain is. Then after we’ve sorted it out with God we go to each other or the person that hurt us and talk it through, if necessary. Many times we’ve worked things out with God and don’t even need to talk to the other person.

We don’t have to walk around with all the hurt and pain of our past or even our present if we lay them at the foot of the cross. God is always with us, always accessible and always wants to help us.

Next time you feel someone poke an old wound or make a new one go to God first and find freedom.

Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” –Matthew 11:28-30

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Never underestimate an Open Door

Run the Race is a movie about the power of forgiveness and the bridges that forgiveness can build. It’s a great story of how no one is beyond saving and we should never give up on people.

My childhood friends from the church I grew up in never gave up on me. They were always there for me and never stopped praying. They never compromised themselves or approved of my choices during my time of ignoring God. But there were always there.

When I finally made the decision to change my life. They immediately jumped in to help and encourage me to stick with my decision.

My friends and my mom never gave up on me. Which made my choice to change, free of fear and condemnation.

Extending forgiveness and keeping the door open, creates a safe place for people to come when they have questions or choose to make a change.

Never under estimate the power of prayer and an open door.

Like leaving the door open when you baking cookies, eventually someone is going to smell the warm comforting sweetness and come in.


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When we are weak Jesus is our strength

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. ~2 Corinthians 12:9

Why do we always think we have to clean ourselves up before we go to God? That’s the very reason Jesus came, to make us clean, pure new creations in Him. We can try our hardest to do everything perfect and it still wouldn’t be enough.

We need to stop striving to get God’s approval and love. He already gave those to us when he sacrificied himself for us. His sacrifices gives us freedom from guilt and shame, because He loves us.

When we are at our worst, our weakest our most vulnerable and we know nothing else but to surrender and let him lead. That’s when he shines the brightest. When we get ourselves out of the way and depend on him.

We just need to surrender to him, and remember on the days we feel the worst he is the best.

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. All this is from God, who through Christ reconciled us to himself and gave us the ministry of reconciliation;  that is, in Christ God was reconciling the world to himself, not counting their trespasses against them, and entrusting to us the message of reconciliation. – 2 Corinthians 5:17-19

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Humility over honor

And being found in appearance as a man,
    he humbled himself
    by becoming obedient to death—
        even death on a cross!

 Therefore God exalted him to the highest place
    and gave him the name that is above every name,
 that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,
    in heaven and on earth and under the earth,
 and every tongue acknowledge that Jesus Christ is Lord,
    to the glory of God the Father.

Philippians 2:8-11

Jesus never demanded respect or to be worshiped or honored. He came to serve. Not to be served.

Have you ever demanded to be honored or respected? Did the actions of the person you demanded respect from fulfill that need or desire. Or did it leave you still wanting more?

When we force appreciation from people it teaches them that honor and respect are demanded, instead of earned.

So in turn they will go and do the same to others.

But when we get our value from God, as Jesus did, we don’t need the approval or appreciation of others to feel honored or respected.

Getting our value from God turns the moments when we are honored or respected by others into ‘life bonuses.’

Weakness is strength

Hear my cry, O God;
    listen to my prayer.

 From the ends of the earth I call to you,
    I call as my heart grows faint;
    lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
 For you have been my refuge,
    a strong tower against the foe.

 I long to dwell in your tent forever
    and take refuge in the shelter of your wings.

Psalm 61:1-4

Even on our worst day, when we feel we have nothing left, we always have God. He is our strength when we are weak. He leads us to the firm foundation that lifts us up and shelter us from the storms.

Jesus did not fear weakness, he fasted for forty day and forty nights because he knew that Father God would sustain him. He allowed himself to be beaten and his lie to be taken because he knew God would raise him. Showing vulnerability shines God even brighter. Because he lifts us up, he gives us strength and stamina to continue to share him with others despite our own iniquities.

God is always listening to us, always ready to answer our call for help, for wisdom, for protection, for strength and for shelter.

People often see weakness as a sign of failure. I see it as a sign of strength. The bravery to be vulnerable enough to show your weakness is strength. But its what we do with that weakness.

Do we just curl up in a ball and call it quits or admit our weakness and let God be our strength. Even the smallest amount of God’s strength can out due us on our strongest day. Knowing where your strength comes from, makes being vulnerable easy. When we give that vulnerability to him. And ask for his help, then he can truly shine.

Jesus is enough

When you love someone and they love you sometimes all you need, sometimes all you want is to just sit with them and enjoy their presence.

Jesus is like that.

His love is so pure, so true, so comforting that all I want to do sometimes is just sit in his presence and drink in his love, joy and peace.


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Sometimes that is the best thing for us.

Just to sit and enjoy his presence, no talking necessary just drink him in.

No matter what is going on, when you don’t have the words or the strength you can just sit in his presence and that is enough. Because he is enough.

People make mistakes

Don’t let others misrepresentation of God deter you from knowing God yourself. Many people have walked away from their faith in God because they were hurt by other believers or believe that God betrayed them.

Just because others have represented God falsely, does not mean that is who he is. Don’t let others perception be your own. Seek the truth about God from God, only he can truly represent himself in His entirety.

People are human and we all make mistakes, I make mistakes. Everyone makes mistakes.

I walked away from my faith when I was 18 because I felt at the time that my spiritual leaders were more concerned with bringing others to Jesus, then helping me through the things I was facing at the time.

I was WRONG. But that was my perception and interpretation at the time.

The truth is they didn’t help me because they didn’t know, I didn’t tell anyone. Instead I started looking to those outside the faith for solutions and they provided nothing other then distractions, rather then solutions

When I came back to my faith in God, I had more problems, not less. Life without God was miserable, I was always seeking the approval of others and digging myself into a deeper and deeper hole to do it.

Giving my life back to God gave me peace and freedom that I had not know during my time away from him. God surrounded me with his love and forgiveness and brought many people into my life to encourage me to grow in my faith.

If you are questioning God I encourage you to go to scripture, flip open your Bible and begin reading. Don’t have a bible visit Biblegateway.com and randomly pick a verse. Talk to someone you respect for how they represent God and ask the hard questions. Talk to God and give him your hard questions, but don’t forget to listen for the answer.

God is there and he loves you and he wants to talk to you. Give him a chance. Don’t let other be the reason you don’t make up your own mind, make your own choices.

Escape vs Surrender

This world often teaches us to escape our problems. Have a drink, try this medication, I just need to veg or blow off steam. But none of these solve the issue. They mask or distract.

But God can. When we surrender our problems over to him he takes care of them for us. Some solutions may be as simple as a perspective change. Other solutions may be something we never considered. God created us. He knows how to care and provide and love us. But he can’t fix what we won’t give him.

So surrender whatever your dealing with over to God and let him be the solution. Let his peace that surpasses understanding wash over you and let his love be enough because it always more than we need.

Who’s leading?

Paul, an apostle of Christ Jesus by the will of God, and Timothy our brother

Colossians 1:1

The apostle Paul was only who he was by following God and the encouragement of others believers, like Timothy. If we try to do what God calls us to do and be who he calls us to be without him. We will fail.

What he asks us to do and who he asks us to be can’t be done without him. It’s only by God’s direction, his grace and his love that we can move mountains.

Paul was a great apostle he wrote a third of the new testament and shared God’s love with thousands. But when Paul tried to accomplish what he thought God wanted without God’s direction. He persecuted those he would later in life call friends and fellow believers.

When we try to do things for God without the leading of the Holy Spirit, they can be good, but they will not accomplish anywhere near what we could if we followed God’s leading. A lot of terrible things have been done in the name of God that he never asked for or wanted.

The leading of the Holy Spirit is imperative and necessary to living for God.

God leads and guides us moment by moment, he gives us the words to say, direction to go, wisdom for decisions and joy and strength to accomplish his leading. Look to Jesus in your daily life and he will move mountains.


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God changes everything

Worship can change everything, our attitude, our demeanor, our perspective and our mood. Worshiping God shifts our focus from our problems to his possibilities, his strength, his power and his provision.

God changes everything and that why we worship him. Because he saves us, he changes us and turns all thing out for good.

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. -Romans 8:28

So whatever your dealing with. Surrender it to God. Give it over to him. Surrender and let him be your solution.

Where I find my confidence

When I was young, I was shy, insecure, lacking confidence, always looking for approval and to feel wanted.

But when I found my identity in Jesus I changed. As I got to know him and his love. My confidence grew because I knew who was behind me, supporting me. Knowing God loved me no matter what, that he would always protect me, keep me safe and never leave. My confidence grew because it was in him and who he is, not me.

When we know God’s love for us, it bolsters us, gives us strength and confidence to be who he made us to be. That’s why spending time with Him and learning who he is, is so important. It gives us the confidence to do and be who he made us to be. His children. To know the one who’s standing behind us.

We are each important to God. He wants to spend every moment of everyday with each of us and he will defend us even to death, because he already did.

That’s love and that’s where my confidence, joy and peace come from. They come from the one who gave up everything for me.

God wants to have a deep, intimate, personal relationship with every single member of humanity. He is our creator and he loves each and every one of us, that is who we find our confidence in, the one who loves us, all of us.

What are you sacrificing?

Star Wars is a great example of the battle of good and evil we all face.

Selfish choices, even if they are for someone else, they change who we are for the worse. We devalue the person we are trying to protect because we compromise ourselves to do it. When we compromise for others we are no longer the person they cared for in the first place.

Anakin changed the selfless path he was on, to save Padmé but his decision to compromise actually ended up being what harmed her.

Even in what seems to be the worst circumstances. We need to trust God to lead us out of it.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
    and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
    and he will make straight your paths. –Proverbs 3:5-6

God knows us and knows what is best for us. His plan is not to harm us but to give us a hope and a future.

I can’t even count the number of times God has brought me through fear or worry or circumstances I didn’t understand at the time.

Changing our allegiance to something else because we want the faster, quicker answer is not the answer. When the Israelites lost faith in God that’s when things took longer or didn’t go there way. But when they put their faith in God. He parted the read sea and made walls fall just from marching.

It’s not our circumstance or our current perspective that should dictate our faith in God. But his track record. How he has over and over again delivered his people from the impossible. So this May the fourth. But your faith in the God of the impossible and let him show you the force of his power and plan.

Faith In Th Unseen

So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. —2 Corinthians 4:18

Faith can be hard for so many people. Because if they can’t see it right in front of them, its not there. But faith in Jesus isn’t ambivalent. It’s trust in who He is. Think of the person in this world that you trust the most. You know them and you trust them because you know who they are and that you can depend on them. You don’t have to see them do something to know they will.

It’s the same with Jesus. We have faith in Him to be there for us not only because of what He’s already done but because we know Him. We know his character and track record. We have faith in him because we trust Him to be who He has already shown us He is. Loving, sacrificial and forgiving.

Who are you?

Put to death therefore what is earthly in you: sexual immorality, impurity, passion, evil desire, and covetousness, which is idolatry.  On account of these the wrath of God is coming. In these you too once walked, when you were living in them.  But now you must put them all away: anger, wrath, malice, slander, and obscene talk from your mouth.  Do not lie to one another, seeing that you have put off the old self with its practices  and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge after the image of its creator. Here there is not Greek and Jew, circumcised and uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave, free; but Christ is all, and in all. –Colossians 3:5-11

Its easy to excuse away our behavior by saying ‘that’s just the way I am.’

But if we are are made new in Jesus, then we are not who we used to be. We are like him.

By saying ‘that’s just the way I am’ we are resurrecting our old self and saying that Jesus in us, is not enough to kill off our old selves.

Jesus makes us new when we invite him into our lives. He gives us new life a new identity.

When we die to self, we are spiritually no longer that person and are given new life in Jesus and that new life is for him to live through us.

So when we find our selves reverting back to our old ways and our old habits we don’t need to try to change, we need to realize that, that is not us anymore.

That’s why knowing Jesus is so important, because the more we know him the more we know our new selves, its how we find our identity in him.

 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. –2 Corinthians 5:17

When you’re at your lowest

Even when we feel we at our worst, God is always all we need.

We tend to want the be alone when at our darkest moment. But that’s when He shines the most, in the darkest places. That’s when we need God the most and that’s when we should turn to Him.

Only He can truly deliver us from our worst moment because only He can make us new. We are a new creation in Christ. We just have to remember who he made us to be and stop dwelling on our old selves.

We are never beyond Jesus reach, if we let Him in.

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. – 2 Corinthians 5:17

Only Jesus

Jesus is my everything and it’s because of him that I write. He put the burden in my heart, he called me to it and encourages me in it. He is who I want to bring light to and draw our focus to.

I don’t write this devotional for myself, for my glory or to be heard by others. I write it to draw people closer to Jesus. To help them see that he loves them and that he wants to be with us all every moment of every day.

So if you get anything out of these devotionals. I hope that you see Jesus, grow closer to him and know him more each day.

What has Jesus placed in your heart? Who has he called you to reach? And how is he calling you to do it?

Love is meant to GROW

And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight –Philippians 1:9

We should always be growing in our relationship with God and with others. It’s when we stop that we feel stuck or stagnant. We should fall head over heels in love more and more as time goes by.

Marriage is not the end. It’s the beginning of a beautiful journey of discovery together.

When we begin our relationship with God we don’t all the sudden know everything about him. We still have to build a relationship. And as we learn about him we grow to love him more.

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It’s the same with our spouses. Yes, we got to know each other before we got married and that why we got married. But we have to continue that adventure of knowing each others.

Because love grows.

We should be overjoyed to learn new thing about God, because we love him. Just as we should in marriage. We should be learning more and more about each other and falling deeper in love with each other.

That’s why God uses marriage as an example of his relationship with us. Both relationships are supposed to be deep, intimate and always growing.

What is God teaching you?

Tychicus will tell you all about my activities. He is a beloved brother and faithful minister and fellow servant in the Lord.  I have sent him to you for this very purpose, that you may know how we are and that he may encourage your hearts,  and with him Onesimus, our faithful and beloved brother, who is one of you. They will tell you of everything that has taken place here. –Colossians 4:7-9

Sharing what God is doing in our lives and others sharing what he is doing in their live is how we encourage and build each others up. We are the body of Christ and how can the body function if it doesn’t communicate with itself. When one part of the body suffers others parts of the body come to heal that part.

When we lived in Michigan we were part of a small group that had no curriculum, no required reading, no plan, except that each week when we gathered we asked each other one simple question.

‘What has God been teaching you this week?’

Our facilitator/host always had something prepared but we rarely needed it. Some of the members would share, not always the same people even but somehow it always all connected. We would teach each other what God was teaching us and encourage each other to grow in our relationship with God. Sometimes when one or a few of us were struggling or hurting we did what the body does we would focus on that person and help them to heal. Even when we didn’t know what to do we followed the leading of the Holy Spirit and let God teach us all. But we made learning how to grow lose to God a shared experience.

Sharing with each others builds faith and trust. It shows that God is real and active in our lives everyday. That he does make a difference and he can do the same for everyone.

Share your life, share your stories of what God has done for you and seek to learn from others what God has done for them.

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What love is this

I’ve never known a love as deep, as pure and unceasing as the love of God. No where else have I felt safer, more cared for and lacking nothing then in the presence of God. He brings joy and peace, a sense of calm that surpasses understanding. His love is where we don’t feel shame or worry only comfort.

It’s us that put up a barrier to keep him at arms length instead of embracing the freedom that his grace provides. But when we accept his forgiveness and surrender control, that’s when we can truly know him.

We are his and he gave everything for us, even his very life just to have a relationship with us. He died because we are valuable to him, we are priceless. And his love is more than enough for us. Accept his gift freely given and melt into the safety of his presence.

No one has greater love than this; to lay down his life for his friends. -John 15:13

God’s got your back

With your help I can advance against a troop; with my God I can scale a wall. 

Psalm 18:29

God is who we draw our confidence and our feeling of invincibility from. When we know who we are. His kids. When we know who He has made us to be and what He’s called us to do. It gives us a firm foundation to stand on. To know that the creator of the universe has got our back.

Imagine if everywhere we went and everything we did, we had a fifty foot angel standing behind us backing us up. Giving us support and encouragement. That’s what it’s like when we trust God to lead us, but even better. Even a fifty foot angel fanes in comparison to God. And God is with us all the time.

We are never alone if we have Him by our side. If we look to Him for guidance. For the right words and for each step and each action each day. he will not fail us if we follow His lead. He created the universe. He can handle our daily schedule. And with Him, we can tackle what seems impossible, because nothing is impossible to him.

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Freedom from Trying

If with Christ you died to the elemental spirits of the world, why, as if you were still alive in the world, do you submit to regulations—  “Do not handle, Do not taste, Do not touch”  (referring to things that all perish as they are used)—according to human precepts and teachings? These have indeed an appearance of wisdom in promoting self-made religion and asceticism and severity to the body, but they are of no value in stopping the indulgence of the flesh.

Colossians 2:20-23

When we die to our selfish nature it’s to stop trying to achieve salvation on our own. We humble ourselves by acknowledging that we cannot achieve it by our own self abasement. So why after receiving Jesus’s free gift of forgiveness would we one again try to earn it?

The choices we make to abstain from things in our lives are to help us develop a deeper relationship with Jesus; building more dependence on him and less on ourselves. Things like fasting are to show us that God can sustain us, not to show others how devout we can be.

Our choices to abstain from things are for our focus to be undivided. If we focus on trying to redeem our past. We will miss what God is doing in our lives now. If we look to darkness for light we are missing the point that he delivered us from darkness.

Stop trying to earn salvation and accept the free gift that it is and enjoy the freedom from darkness that Jesus salvation provided.

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Praise HIM

The first exegetical sermon (which simple means using the whole text and in context) I ever preached was on Psalm 150. The last of the Psalms. It cries out the heart of the book of psalms Praise HIM, no matter what, no matter how you feel, Praise HIM.

Praise HIM everywhere in every way, all the time. With singing, with instruments, with dancing, with focus and undivided attention.

Praising God isn’t about the perfect song or if the band is on key, or if you sit, stand, kneel, dance or jump about. It’s about your heart.

Worship is about God, not us.

Are your words and your actions reflecting God? Are you shining glory on him? Are you taking time to solely focus on God, thanking him, praising him and giving him the glory? That’s what he deserves.

How are you praising HIM?

Psalm 150

Praise the Lord.

Praise God in his sanctuary;

   praise him in his mighty heavens.

Praise him for his acts of power;

   praise him for his surpassing greatness.

 Praise him with the sounding of the trumpet,

   praise him with the harp and lyre,

 praise him with timbrel and dancing,

   praise him with the strings and pipe,

 praise him with the clash of cymbals,

   praise him with resounding cymbals.

 Let everything that has breath praise the Lord.

Praise the Lord.

Prayer isn’t something to be scared of

Those moments when we’re lost, tired, confused and stressed. There is one thing we can always pray, Jesus.

In times of stress and worry we often neglect prayer because we think we need the right words or we don’ know what to say. But we don’t really have to say anything. We can simple call on Jesus and let him do the talking.

Prayer doesn’t have to be some eloquently written poem. Prayer is a conversion between you and God.

Don’t worry about what to say.

Be open, honest, raw and say anything, he can handle it. The most important thing is that we are opening the line of communication to him and that we are giving him a chance to talk to us. Just say Jesus and listen.

To Take or to Give

I had the pleasure of meeting Pastor Henry Convington and his wife Annette of I Am My Brothers Keeper in Detroit, Michigan years ago. So I was excited to learn more of their story when I saw the movie Have a Little Faith. 

Pastor Covington’s life was a great example of the complete transformation that Jesus makes in our life. He was a drug dealer and addict until he hit his rock bottom and surrendered his life to Jesus.

Jesus is always there for us and he wants to take care of us. But we have a choice. We can choose to live however we want and ignore Jesus or we can choose to follow Jesus and trust him to take care of us.

Pastor Covington hustled for what he thought he wanted and it almost cost him his life. But when he turned his life to Jesus instead of taking from people, God gave him the opportunity to give to people..

Don’t be afraid to do what God has asked of you. Trust that he will you take care of you and will never fail. God is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. Trust that his promises and provision don’t change. We just have to chose him instead of our fear, worry and anxiety. He will give us his peace, provision and love.

Who are you when you’re alone?

Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed—not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence—continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling,  for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose.-Philippians 2:12-13

How do you act, speak, think when your alone? Is it the same way you are in public, at work, at church?

Would you be ashamed to share who you are at home or what you do? Does who you are change depending on where you are? Or who you’re around.

If we have Jesus living in us and we are living by the guidance of the Holy Spirit. We should be the same person whether we are alone or surround by thousands.

If you worship God at Church worship him at home. If you pray at church, pray at work, in the car, or while doing the dishes. The Holy Spirit lives in us no matter where we are or what we are doing. Where we are or what were doing does not change who God is. So why would it change who we are or what we do. No matter what you’re doing or where you are. Remember God is with you. He doesn’t change, he is the same. And we can depend on him for everything anywhere anytime.

Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever. -Hebrews 13:8

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Jesus Humbled Himself

Who, being in very nature God,
    did not consider equality with God something to be used to his own advantage;
rather, he made himself nothing
    by taking the very nature  of a servant,
    being made in human likeness.
 And being found in appearance as a man,
    he humbled himself
    by becoming obedient to death—
        even death on a cross! –Phil 2:6-8

Even Jesus didn’t consider himself equal with Father God when he came to earth. He could of been born to the highest king in all the world. He could of come as an adult.

But instead He choose to come as a baby, to a young girl and her fiance with no notoriety or status.

He choose to start with humble beginnings.

He never demanded to be worshipped, glorified, honored or respected.

He simple came to serve us in love. To do what we couldn’t, to live a sinless life and then die falsely accused the death of a murder.

All to give us the opportunity to have right relationship with Father God. To not have to earn anything, simple to let Him live through us. He gave us the Holy Spirit to guide us. Jesus did the hard part.

We need to stop striving and trying to work for Him. Instead we need to start surrendering and let Him work through us!

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The unknown doesn’t have to be scary

God fights for us even when we don’t see it. He works things out before we even know them and builds a path for us to walk that we cannot see. It can be scary to go where you haven’t been.

My husband and I have lived in several different states in our 10+ years of marriage. In each place, he put people in our lives for us to reach, love and encourage in their faith in God. And people have influenced us too. Because no matter how long or short we we were somewhere God had gone before us and prepared a place for us, he built connections for us and prepared our way, we were simply willing to go.

God may not be calling you to move across the country or to move around the world. He may only be asking you to walk across the street. But whatever he has called you to, he has prepared the path ahead for you. Are you willing to follow where He leads you?

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
    and lean not on your own understanding;
 in all your ways submit to him,
    and he will make your paths straight

Proverbs 3:5-6

How do you see yourself?

It’s easy to struggle with how God sees you when you get wrapped up in how others see you or how you see yourself. But how God sees us is what matters!

He is our creator and a creator always knows how something was meant to be used. It’s us or others that see ourselves not as we were intended to be.

God sees us all as his beautiful kids that he loves. We need to ask him to show us how he sees us each day. Then we can fulfill the purpose he intended for us when he made us.

For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. -Psalm 139:13

Second chances

As he was speaking, the teachers of religious law and the Pharisees brought a woman who had been caught in the act of adultery. They put her in front of the crowd.

“Teacher,” they said to Jesus, “this woman was caught in the act of adultery.  The law of Moses says to stone her. What do you say?”

 They were trying to trap him into saying something they could use against him, but Jesus stooped down and wrote in the dust with his finger.  They kept demanding an answer, so he stood up again and said, “All right, but let the one who has never sinned throw the first stone!”  Then he stooped down again and wrote in the dust.

When the accusers heard this, they slipped away one by one, beginning with the oldest, until only Jesus was left in the middle of the crowd with the woman.  Then Jesus stood up again and said to the woman, “Where are your accusers? Didn’t even one of them condemn you?”

 “No, Lord,” she said.

And Jesus said, “Neither do I. Go and sin no more.”

-John 8:3-11

We have all done something wrong in our lives. None of us is without blemish. None of us could cast the first stone at the other for their mistakes. Because none of us are without mistakes. That is the beauty of why Jesus came to redeem us. He came to do what we could not, to live a life without sin.

That’s why second chances and believing in others is so important. Because we all were given a second chance from God. How could we not do the same for others.

I watched a movie the other night about a basketball coach who saw potential in his players to not only do well as athletes but he saw beyond that. That they could exceed the expectations of others around them in their education too.

That’s how God is with us. He sees way more potential in us then we or others see in ourselves. That’s why he never gives up on us. He is always our biggest cheerleader. He knows we are capable of far greater then we can think or imagine. If we will just trust him to guide us to it.

Trust in all things


Trust in the Lord with all your heart
    and lean not on your own understanding;
 in all your ways submit to him,
    and he will make your paths straight. –Proverbs 3:5-6

Whatever comes our way good or bad. We can trust God. We can look to him in every situation and he will bring us joy and peace. We may not understand why or how. But putting our faith in God is not about understanding. It’s about trust.

When we are children our parents give us instruction to protect us and take care of us. We may not understand why but we trust our parents to take care of us. It’s the same with God. He may ask us to do something or not to do something for our benefit whether we understand it or not, we can trust Him. We can trust that he knows the outcome even if we can’t see it at the time.

How many times in your life have looked back and realized your parents, mentor, leader or boss were right about something you didn’t understand at the time. Did the parting of the red sea make sense, or the walls of Jericho walling down from marching and praising God. Or Jesus raising from the dead. Did any of these make sense at the time. Did Moses or Joshua or the disciples truly know and understand exactly what God was doing to do. Or did they trust God.

God can see the bigger picture. He knows what it takes to get us where we need to go and what may harm us in the long end. Trust God to lead you and know that His heart is for you.


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Are you helping or hindering?

I urge Euodia and I urge Syntyche to agree and to work in harmony in the Lord.  Indeed, I ask you too, my true companion, to help these women [to keep on cooperating], for they have shared my struggle in the [cause of the] gospel, together with Clement and the rest of my fellow workers, whose names are in the Book of Life. ~Philippians 4:2-3

Why do we have disagreements within the church body? I’m not talking about the big theological debates. More about the simple things like how the Christmas decorations get set up.

Why do we let these things bother us? Was it really our decision in the first place or are we giving our opinion. If it is our opinion, is that what we should be focused on? Isn’t our role in the church to be the body of Christ, to help others, not hinder. Have we asked Jesus His opinion on the matter? Or are we just blazing forward without regard for God’s opinion.

You may think He doesn’t care about the little things. Or that your perfectly capable of making that decision without Him. But should we be doing things without Him? Just because we can, doesn’t mean we should.

Jesus can make the simplest thing simpler or the most boring thing enjoyable. Make every moment a moment to deepen your relationship with Him. If doing something simple and boring is more fun with a friend; and He is the funnest friend ever. Then shouldn’t we want to do everything with Him.

If your have a differing opinion then someone else in the body of Christ. Then you should both seek God and ask him how you can serve others. Changing our perspective from ourselves to others. Changes our hearts to the gospel. As Paul is speaking of in this verse. Jesus didn’t come to earth to make things about him. He came to connect us to Father God. He came to serve others not himself or his opinion but to do and say what his Heavenly Father said and did. If even Jesus didn’t consider his opinion to be above others how can we.

What fills you?

Soaking is a term in many Christian groups. That means to literally sit in God’s presence and soak it in. Marinade in his presence till your enveloped in it. You don’t have to pray or sing or do anything. Just sit and let everything go, all your worries, concerns, pain and frustration. Just let Jesus be enough for it all.

It’s a moment where you don’t have to do or be anything. Just surrendered to God and focused on him. It’s like what I describe in my ‘Jello Effect‘ devotional.

If you’ve never tried soaking in God’s presence. I want to encourage you to put on your favorite worship music and just let everything go. Let God fill you up with his peace, joy, love and presence. Let the words flow over you like a river and let God melt away your worries and concerns. Because he is more than enough!

God is Good

There are so many songs that talk about how good God is and each one resonates because he is good. King of my Heart by Bethel Music repeats how good he is to us in everything that we face. He is the anchor in the storm, his is fire in our souls and the mountain where we run.

We know that we can run to him no matter how we are feeling and he is there for us. He is there to comfort us when we are sad or shield us when we’re weak. He anchors us when we start to stray and he is who we run to and thank for his blessings beyond our beliefs.

God is good, because he has proven it to me more times then I can count. He blessed me with amazing friends that never gave up on me when I ran from God. He blessed me with an amazing husband who has strength and character that I didn’t know I wanted or needed. God is good.

He has been there for me in some the hardest moments of my life, and helped me find joy and peace when I saw none.

God is good. Ask him how he wants to show his goodness to you today!

We Have a Choice

“You can either run from your past or learn from it” Rafki  The Lion King

One of the greatest gifts God gives us is choice. We have the choice to choose our actions and reactions. We can choose to let things in our past dictate how we act, speak and interact with others. Or we can make a conscious choice not to let our past determine our future.

The amazing thing abut Jesus sacrifice is that he gives us a choice. We can choose to continue to live our lives for ourselves. OR we can choose to believe in his sacrifice and accept the forgiveness he freely gives us. Because the choice to follow Jesus means our old self is dead. Now Jesus lives through us. We follow the leading of the Holy Spirit and put others before ourselves.

Every moment of everyday we can choose to follow the Holy Spirit or we can choose our own selfish desires. I’ve tried both and for me Jesus is always the better choice. What will you choose?

 I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. – Galatians 2:20

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Find the Light

Light even in the darkest place will help you see, if you look for it.

Have you ever closed your eyes in a dark room and been able to see better when you opened them. If we stay in the dark, we will get used to it and think that this is how life is. But if we seek out the light and look for more, we will find the light and eventually leave the darkness behind.

God gave me a vision a long time ago of him walking in the woods at night with no path, but as he walked the footprints he left behind illuminated to guide me where he wanted me to follow.

We can find the light if we look for it. Jesus is always with us waiting to be our light; to guide us even in the darkest places.

Close your eyes and ask him to show you the light. To show you the steps he wants you to take.

When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” -John 8:12

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Who God made you to be

Paul, an apostle of Christ Jesus by the will of God, to the saints who are in Ephesus, and are faithful in Christ Jesus. –Ephesians 1:1

God’s identity for each of us is so crucial to our relationship with Him. Who and what He has called us to is so much more then a career; it’s who we are.

For me, it’s writing, it’s who he made me to be and even though I don’t earn a dime from it currently, it’s still who I am. Writing uplifts me, it causes me to think about what He’s done, what He is doing and seek to know Him more. Writing about Him is how I understand Him and know His character.

In our American society we get so encapsulated that our job or career is our identity. But we are so much more the what we do for a living. Our identity can never be stripped away. We can lose everything and everyone and God will still be God and we will still be who He called us to be; His kids.

Paul knew that and that’s why he says by the will of God, because God completely changed who he was. God gave Paul a new identity, a new purpose and even a new name.

God does this with us too. When we seek God and ask Him who He made us to be. He reveals His identity for us, who He designed us to be. We become fulfilled by Him the more we walk in the identity He’s called us to.

Who has God made you to be?

God’s Love Endures

About midnight Paul and Silas were praying and singing hymns to God, and the other prisoners were listening to them. –Act 16:25

The love of God is so overwhelming that even in prison his disciples still worship. You have to wonder what is so great about God’ love. That people would be willing to be imprisoned for it and still praise him in that prison.

In the book Heavenly Man, the true life story of a leader of the underground church in China. He endured multiple imprisonments, beatings and mistreatment. Even through this he still shared God’s love with the very men that beat him. This made me wonder if I would be willing to endure the same for the gospel. But that’s God’s love, it endures everything and anything.

Jesus was falsely accused, beaten and died the death of a murderer for all for us, because he loves us.


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That love is worth sacrifice.

God’s love endures.

It endure our constant rejections, abuse, neglect and straight opposition.

His love endures.

No matter what. His love for you never changes. No matter what you say or do he loves you and it is that love that holds us together.

His love endures all things

If his love can endure all. Isn’t it worth giving him the chance to love you?

Forever on Your Side

I’m not going to even begin to think that I have all the answers. But the one thing that I know for sure is that God is forever on our side. I know that his love for us never ends. That he is always there for us no matter what. We need only to look to him.

He was there when I made less then wise decisions. He was there when I choose to ignore him and he is there for me now. He is always there for all of us. All the time. We choose whether to let him in or not.

He’s been there for me in some of the hardest moments of my life. And he’s been there for the good times too.

When I was young I was really shy and I had very low confidence in myself. But as I’ve grown to know God deeper and more intimately. I have grown in confidence and assurance of who I am. Because I know who he made me to be. That he gives me everything I need to achieve the goals he’s laid on my heart. And he’s there for me when I fail too.

God’s love is not dependent on our behavior its always there. But we have to allow him in. We have to allow him to show us who he made us to be. When we find our identity in Jesus. It opens new doors and opportunities that we never knew existed and he gives us the confidence to succeed.

Give God the chance to show you that he’s forever on your side.

Is it really worth it

Lord of the Rings exemplifies how we all struggle with choosing good or evil and the temptation for shortcuts to what we want in life. The ring represents those shortcuts that we are so often are tempted to take in life. Those shortcuts causes us to compromise who we are to achieve what we’ve been working toward in an instant. But the problem is we will no longer be who we are if we choose to compromise to get the power or control or upper hand that we so desperately think we need.

Gandalf, Galadriel and Aragorn all knew this and refused to compromise who they are in exchange. There may be options or opportunities that we are presented with in life that could skyrocket us to what we want out of life. But at what cost? Is it really worth throwing away the journey you’ve taken so far, be it a day, an hour, a week, or years for that moment of instant gratification that will sullen who you’ve worked to become.

If any of these characters had taken the shortcut to increase their power or position they would have ceased being who they were and become something they never wanted or intended.

We have to realize that the quick fix is never the answer.

God made each and everyone of us and he loves us all. He knows who he made us to be. The journey to become that person is how we become who he made us to be. It’s the journey that makes us who we are.

God knows you

O Lord, you have searched me and known me!
You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
    you discern my thoughts from afar.
You search out my path and my lying down
    and are acquainted with all my ways.
Even before a word is on my tongue,
    behold, O Lord, you know it altogether.
You hem me in, behind and before,
    and lay your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
    it is high; I cannot attain it.

Psalm 139:1-6

We all search for and want someone who understands us, who gets us, and knows us to our very soul.

Jesus is that person. He knows us even better then we know ourselves. He knit us together in our mothers womb and He knows us to our very core.

We are the ones who put up the barriers and choose to separate ourselves from Him. We are the ones who surrender some of us, but still hang onto the most painful parts of our lives, to keep control.

I want to encourage you to surrender everything over to Him. Stop holding back and trust Him. I’ve never felt more myself then when I surrendered my life over to Jesus. I know it sounds strange, but He made us and He knows how to fulfill us.

We just have to trust Him.

Represent Jesus

Whatever happens, conduct yourselves in a manner worthy of the gospel of Christ. Then, whether I come and see you or only hear about you in my absence, I will know that you stand firm in the one Spirit, striving together as one for the faith of the gospel without being frightened in any way by those who oppose you. This is a sign to them that they will be destroyed, but that you will be saved—and that by God. For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe in him, but also to suffer for him, since you are going through the same struggle you saw I had, and now hear that I still have. –Philippians 1:27-30

Would you act the way you act if Jesus were standing right next to you?

Regardless of the circumstance around us. We are to represent Jesus in our words, our actions and reactions.

No one said Christianity would be easy or popular. But it will change you for the better if you let it.

We may be surrounded by opposition but that does not mean it has to change us. One of the biggest ways to witness to others. Is to let them see that we are faithful to share God’s love. Even in the toughest circumstances.

No matter if people are screaming at us and telling us, we’re wrong. We know the truth. That God loves us and that He loves them too. That truth can move mountains.

When we don’t falter during the hard times. We show others what God has to offer. That they can have the same peace in the storm and confidence that they are loved, that we do.

Regardless of the circumstances around us or the lack of support or encouragement from others. When we know God and His character. He provides all that we need and more to represent Him to others.

He gives us peace in the storm and the confidence to love others. Because we are loved by Him. We share that love that changed us with others so it can change them too.

Abide in Jesus

 “I am the true vine, and my Father is the vinedresser.  Every branch in me that does not bear fruit he takes away, and every branch that does bear fruit he prunes, that it may bear more fruit.  Already you are clean because of the word that I have spoken to you. Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in me.  I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing.  If anyone does not abide in me he is thrown away like a branch and withers; and the branches are gathered, thrown into the fire, and burned.  If you abide in me, and my words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you.  By this my Father is glorified, that you bear much fruit and so prove to be my disciples.  As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Abide in my love.  If you keep my commandments, you will abide in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commandments and abide in his love.  These things I have spoken to you, that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be full.-John 15:1-11

Abiding in the vine. Abiding in Jesus. Changes us. It changes our wants, our desires, and the way we think. If we abide in the vine, we abide in the love of God. Jesus’s desires become our desires. So that keeping his commandments is out of love, not status or achievement.

Abiding in the vine. Is about literally growing as a branch to reach out and grow fruit. If we are each a branch. Then how many could we reach. How many could be grafted into the house of God so they can know his love and bear fruit themselves.

Seek to abide in God to soak up the nutrients needed to reach and bear fruit.

Abide in the vine that is Jesus. Abide in his love and you will bear his fruit.

You Are Not Alone

When you feel defeated, knocked down, like no one is in your corner. Jesus is always there for you. He always has your back. He will go to bat for you because He already did when lived a sinless life and died to pay for our mistakes.

He’s forever on our side.

Jesus is always there for us.

We can always talk to Him. He is always listening, because He loves us.

He loves us so much that He gave everything for us. He gave every second of everyday for us. He gave up His life for US!

He’s forever on our side.

Jesus Sacrifice Provides Freedom

In ‘The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe’ movie. Aslan lays down his life in place of Edmond. No matter how many times I watch this movie. I can’t watch this part, it makes me cry. Because Aslan represents Jesus and Edmond represents humanity. Its symbolic of what Jesus did to give us relationship with Father God, himself and Holy Spirit.

Jesus laid down His life willingly for us. All of us and He knew it wouldn’t be easy or quick and that some would even rejoice in His unjust suffering. But he forgave them even as He was dying. He forgave all of us.

Jesus paid the price for everything we have even done wrong. So that He could have a relationship with us. So we could be forgiven and find freedom from guilt and shame.

Thank Jesus today for his sacrifice and find the freedom he paid for.

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Trusting God, Isn’t Hard When You Know Him

But as for me, I trust in You, O LORD,

I say, “You are my God.” – Ps 31:14

When you’re close with someone, you trust them. Because you know their character. So how can you trust God if you don’t know him?

Of course big leaps of faith sound crazy if your trying to trust a God you barely know. But that’s why it’s so crucial to have a daily relationship with him. When you spend everyday with someone you know them. You know their quirks and their preferences. How they would react in different situations.

That’s why I trust God with the big decisions in my life. Because I spend time with him. This blog is one of those ways. I ask him to show himself to me and he speaks to me through his word, songs, movies, nature and often just a conversation. 

When we make God a daily part of our lives. Trusting him with the big and the little decisions doesn’t seem scary; it just feels right. Because we know he wants nothing but the best for us.